Bored :(

so I played with photo effects software... 

Personal Growth

Last Wed & Thurs, I've attended a course on managing personal growth thru effective communication and interpersonal skills. Lots of knowledge and experience yang diturunkan oleh facilitator tu... Ada group presentation, individual presentation and role-playing.  Dalam course tu, ada 5 participants jerr termasuk aku... all ladies.. itulah yg buat kitaorang ckp main bantai jerr..

Apapun, 1 of my colleagues called me yesterday, asked for training feedback coz bosnya suruh refer kat aku if the course is relevant to her... well, from the course title dah dapat tau, it's for personal development so it's not really a specific training course... sapa2 pun buleh join.. especially buat mereka yg punya bos yg kuat becakap n mengarah.. ohh.. kat course tu, dia ajar gak tactics to answer on different situations especially bila we busy kan.. but advice dia supaya kita terima kerja tu untuk challenge kebolehan kita... jangan anggap kerja lebih tu sebagai satu masalah plak.. am not sure i can do this - lagi plak masa mmg sentiasa tak cukup..

sekarang nie pun, i'm doing my daily log to track kerja seharian aku to support apa yg ku kasitau kat bos bukan tipu semata2.

Lots and lots of thinking...

Am a bit sleepy today... So, I decided to freshen my mind and make me awake. I've a lot of things to commit, speaking of which I couldnt manage to cope with..

morning

go out to work...

after work spend one hour

either hiking or jungle trekking (at least twice a week) OR

pegi lepak minum at our normal place (on Friday only)

balik rumah

catch up wiv my chinese drama series...

dinner

ajar faris buat homework

main sama farid <-- now cannot escape sudah coz he doesnt want to be wiv maid at nite

buat assignment sama umie

tugas untuk membuat research n development on personal n important thing to do...

tugas untuk update blog nie, blog anak, blog hip team.. update blog memerlukan bnyk masa untuk prepare bahan nya... but i dun have dat tym allocate to do this...

i wish i could shorten my working tym to do all stuff dat i consider important to me.. keke.. i hope u guys can read my message clearly...

speaking of working, i know i feel i'm losing my motivation to work, though i have to keep up with good performance juz as this is the determinant for our salary increment... but im praying one day i will be out of here but i cant wait 4 dat 1 dy 2 happen.. whether its the rite move, i hope i wont regret this...

personal life.. i wouldnt 1 2 comment lots on this... juz hoping that nothing complicates my marriage and my family life... amin amin amin!!

sharing 1 principle of my life:

Live life with no regrets, live life with respect...

Fever

Ambik cuti esuk. So, long weekend nie.. Anyway, back from office, maid told me Farid had a temperature. Cek cek 38 degrees. Panas tu... Bagi makan paracetamol. Farid langsung nda mengusut. Aktif plg sampai mama pun beruri nie... Apapun hope he recovers soon! Coz esuk Faris birthday..

Moody

Really a bad day!! Awal pagi dah kena tagih usin... Mana nda hot?? Ari 1 dah minta tolong suruh byr, rupanya alum tah dibayar... Bek jua final month. Fed up ku udah. Sapa bah yang dapat ku harapkan? Nampak gayanya paksa tah bekarih sendiri... Part part kana tagih $ atu nda siuk kali rasanya ah... Tym kan membali brg dulu, bukan main janji kan bayar on time lahhhh... biasalah kan... Udah beberapa bulan, paksa main tagih, barutah kan membayar!! Image yg nda bagus... Mcm nda bertanggungjawab plang... Kalau lah org yg menanggung utang atu tau dari awal, memang tah nda ia sanggup kan cover.. Urg pun beguna usin kali ah...

Pastu ada tia lagi emel dari bos anie... Nda pandai abis-abis... Suruh aku dtg ari jumat ke bndr.. Sampai paksa jaie mium off alu na gala ndo nian ja-ui ne na... Memajal od atin!! Pu-roh od jain sabi g bndr... Apa jenis manusia yang nda tau kan bagi org masa bernafas anie? Bulehhhhh kah ia nda memajal??

Then ada lagi news aircon rusak di rumah... Tau-tau dah bulan posa kan raya... Bnyk kan dipikirkan... Tym ani tah jua kan rusak. Kan minta usin lagi.... Duhhh... Abis agen aircon atu ku bantai... Hahhh baru tia tahu... Palui jua tu.. Under warranty tapi labour caj bayar sendiri... Bsai membuat bisnes catu ehhh... Balik rumah krg tah ku mengakas warranty cardnya... Kepisan!!

Enuff for today... Harap2 no bad news again..

Lost...

.... Cinta, jangan tinggalkan aku kerna takkan pernah ada cinta selain dirimu

Jika kau tinggalkan aku, sanggupkah diriku menghapus segala bayangmu oh kekasihku....

Lagu: Segala Bayangmu by Ornito

I'm listening repeatedly to this song.. I dunno why almost all Indonesian hits memberi kesan to me... I really enjoy listening to jiwang-jiwang stuff.. When I do listen to my song lists, terbuai-buai rasa jiwa.. kekeke.. How do we live without music? I believe I couldn't...

Actually, apa yang ingin ku luahkan anie, lately, I felt really miserable... Fighting with my feelings, dunno why... Well of course my career always bothers my mind... Dah lebih 5 years I work with this company but I still couldn't find myself happy with my work... Jangan kan pikirkan pasal satisfaction... Tak tau lah nak cakap apa... Adakah aku nda pandai besyukur dengan rezeki yang diberi Allah untuk ku? Aku buntu... Aku seolah-olah merasakan aku teraniaya bila aku sendiri tak pasti apa motif sebenar org atasan ku... 

Sekarang nie, environment kat opis memang jauh berbeza dengan dulu... Finance team dulu bersatu, worked as one team.. sekarang nie, kitaorang buat kerja masing2... Kalau dulu, ada masalah, orang atasan akan tanggung bersama... Now, era tu dah berlalu... Kalau ko buat salah, ko sendiri lah yang tanggung... yess... Sebab tu, aku hilang respek dengan org atasan ku dah... Baru2 nie, especially di bulan posa nie, memang pun kitaorang kena balik awal dari biasa, jam 3. Tapikan, org atasan ku, macam tak paham saja yang kita nie Muslim. Buat2 tak tahu yg jam dah pukul 3.  Yang brengseknya, tanya kitaorang balik pukul berapa (coz aku balik driver yang antar)... Dah kasi tau balik pukul 3, tapi tak jugak release2 aku sampai kul4. Paling pantang bila isu pasal agama ani dipermainkan... Memang dah tak der respek kat org atasanku... 

Again, aku selalu bilang sama bos ku yang kerja ku anie menimbun berlambak manakan inda... alum abis satu, satu lagi... lepas tu, dia warning plak kat saya, jangan tangguh2kan keje tu... Oi mcm kan tercabut saja inda nyawaku anie, menyiapkan keraja atu... Kasi tau pun tak derr gunanya.. Mth-end baru nie, si dia minta tolong kat i, untuk menyiapkan partnya... Aku dengan bsainya dah gto kedia keraja ku banyak, nda sure dpt tolong kah nda... Dia bilang apanah, " Appreciate your help." Memajal kali ah.... Bulehhhhhhh.... Dalam erti kata yang lain - aku kena lah kerja lebih masa di bulan posa nie... 

STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS

I really dunno how to move forward... Stress berabis!! 

Sebab tu tepikir gak nak cari kerja lain... Kata org, money doesn't buy happiness.. Well, if I was to consider kerja pat lain, I'm losing a lot monthly, quarterly, yearly... monthly dah rugi 2K?? 

Ya Allah, berikanlah petunjuk dan hidayahMu agar aku dapat melangkahkan perjalanan hidupku ke arah yang diredhai... Amin!!

psst: sorry pasal language yang ku pakai ada yang terlebih sudah.. pyh jua ah meluahkan perasaan cakap melayu campur anie ah.. harap2 org yg ku cakapi ani takkan pernah paham apa yg ku coretkan anie..

OFF!!

Tomoro...

Well well, dat was a short 1, packing dat is!! Done with it... Rite now, I dunno wat my feeling is... Of course, I know I will certainly miss both boys... Since tomoro nite I'll be sleeping without them by my side :( ohh i cant help thinking about it... Hope I'll remember to bring their pillows with me, otherwise I will merenyek-renyek mengacau my lau kung not to sleep and to entertain me all thru the nite. Tak caya kan?? Can't help it.. It's the mother's feeling.. Some say I'm just too worried. Watever ppl say, they are free to say... It's me, I know well myself...

Last nite, before Faris and myself went to sleep, I kept saying when I'm not around, pls sleep wiv nini and take care of Farid.. He just noded his head.. 

Harap2 kali ani, 3 malam atu nda terasa... sekajap ja berlalu... if i could skip the tym... huh... 

Today...

I am so down... bored like what... a lot of work to settle before going on leave but my mood seems to disappear a week ago... bila takde mood, susah mo buat semua keraja nie.. terutama sekali kerja routine yg mmg lama dh hilang minat..

Mujurlah bos tadi masuk... distribute this cute pen 2 all of us!! He asked me to choose whether I wanted light or dark brown. I picked light brown as it looks nice 2 my eyes!! Siapa menjangka bos yg mmg nda diminati kasi we all souvenir from his hometown, Canada!! After all, I know he's still a nice person deep down in his heart. Mmg keje nya yg membuatkan dia terpaksa jadi org yg dibenci di cni... But well, as long as he doesn't demand anything beyond my capabilities, I still can survive working here. Of course lah, sekali sekala komplen gak coz dia nie jenis yg jam-jam atu jua mo nya... tak nak tolak ansur ckit... Neways, thks 2 him 4 remembering us!! Bila lagi dia nak cuti yerr?? ehem ehem....

Birthday Greetings 2009

A year older... Just wondering y we are sooo happy when it comes to our birthday? It's a PLUS one to our age??? Anyway, with family, friends and relatives' greetings, I'm thankful dat they still remember this so-called special day of mine... Ohhh probably now we have the 'reminder' service from facebook... It's easier to just refer to it than to remember by hard everyone's birthdate... I got a question from my eldest prince yesterday when we had our routine telephone conversation after school hours. He asked me, 'mama bday hari ani, ma??' And, I remembered well he mentioned bday cake... <<>

Anyway, anyhow, I just would like to record all the greetings so that it wont slip out of my mind and thoughts... Thanks to all of you!!

On the 3rd of August,

12.30 am: Happy birthday syg.. smoga panjng umur, murah rezeki, sihat2 slalu dsmping kmi yg tsyg - Lau kung

12.54am: hepi bday 2 HIP-547... blanja makan?? - Alai

6.29am: Happy birthday meh.. may u hv a beautiful day today n every single day throughout the 30th yr of ur life.. semoga ceria n bahagia selalu.. :) - Sander

9.13am: Salam meh... Happy 30th B'day! Many happy returns with ur beloved family! Take care :) - Memet

9.47am: Hpy bdy nime! - Siti Mahani

10.13am: Happy Birthday... semoga panjang umur.. murah rezeki. amin. From: zal&dd. P/S ada special kah?

4.03pm: Happy bday kak emy, yg ke berapa 2? Huhu moga panjang umur n d murahkan rezeki, ada party kh? Huhuhu - Ejo

5.43pm: Happy birthday - Adli

8.11pm: Happy bestday dang.. - Hjh K

4/8/09 10.39am: Happy b'day dang. Semalam kn mengreet ko tpi aku kurang sihat. - Tini

Oso, recd phone call from my supervisor about 9am ystrdy, email from Alison, face-2-face greetings from OPP colleagues (and Annie), 2 bday cards from OPP & BSB office (i'm lucky in dis sense to have 2 offices!!) and lots of greetings from facebook. Hope to screenshots them and will keep them here immediately.

Thanks also to Mary for belanja me lunch ystrdy!!

To OPP staff & management for the cutting cake and singing bday song ceremony at the control room...

For the special treat from my close family, ikut sibuk2 preparing for our small gathering, last nite.. Today, I had spent my lunch wiv 2 of my special colleagues - Hjh K and Ainul. It was a last-minute offer.. Luckily, they could make it!! Thks for the ride nul!! Thks to both 4 de time spent together..

Looking forward to have our special special gathering tomorrow!! Can't wait but have to wait!! Huh, penantian satu seksaan!!

Update

The whole day readykan gmbr for blog ayisayid.. ahirnya mission completed. Blog updated.  Click here if you are interested to see how they look like in 2009. Thanks for viewing!! Still more to upload though..

Buang boring.. Mood ada...

Sehari lapas balik dari course @ KL, we had to attend my BIL kawin... 10th of May 2009, if I remember correctly. Mood tym tu kan menggambar so bawa lah Che'Non sis... briefing jap tentang penggunaan DSLR cam tu.. Selebihnya pandai2 sendiri.. If nda tau, tanya kat photographers yg ada... Well, nda dpt di percayai jua bisdurg atu, ajaran sesatttt!!! Here's some of my collection.  Hopefully, takde kat mana2 kamera ari tu... Lain dari yang lain n best of the best... kekeke... To photographers (in case you come n visit my blog), jan JELES!!! hahaha... :p

Rindu

Wahh... baru sadar blog ane lama dah nda aktif... I didn't drop by last month... rindu rasanya kan blogging.... Will come back soon... mengakas gmbr-gmbr untuk di post... mcm bnyk...

Hope to concentrate on 'MY' own things from now on..

Tentang Dia

Here's a chance to see how well you really know your husband. Cut, paste and fill in the answers, then shoot, you know what to do. The real challenge is to send it to your husband to see how right you really are. Tag friends to complete it as well!
*For the one that not married yet,u can write for your loves one

1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
TV3 (6.30pm), Astro Ria (9-10pm), Star Sports (when Liverpool plays)

2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
Thousand Island dressing

3. What's one food he doesn't like?
Sayur Pisang

4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?
Depends... Dosai & teh tarik slalunya.

5. Where did he go to high school?
MTSSR

6. What size shoe does he wear?
6

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
Army stuff

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
Egg Sandwich

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?
Nothing in particular..

10. What is his favorite cereal?
None.. haha... not sure!!

11. What would he never wear?
Baju pompuan lerr..

12. What is his favorite sports team?
Soccer

13. Who did he vote for?
Liverpool

14. Who is his best friend?
HIP-079 kot...

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
Memanjangkan isu-isu remeh temeh

16. What is his heritage?
Arab

17. What is his favourite colour?
Blue

18. What is his habit?
no wories

19. What is he proud of?
His photos, hahaha...

20. Lastly, do you think he will read this?
hmm... I will make him read... publish in blog lah ne...

Farid Journey of Life

Just for sharing... posted in facebook as well... took few days to compile photos, upload n did the scrapbooking..

Song of the Day

Really love this song... Ke jiwa kali ah...

Terlanjur cinta...

waktu bergulir lambat merantai langkah perjalanan kita

berjuta cerita terukir dalam 

menjadi sebuah dilema

mengertikah engkau 

perasaanku tak terhapuskan

malam menangis 

tetes embun membasahi mata hatiku

mencoba bertahan di atas 

puing-puing cinta yang tlah rapuh

apa yang kugenggam 

tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu

dan tlah kuberikan sluruh hatiku

tapi mengapa baru kini kau pertanyakan cintaku

akupun tak mengerti yang terjadi

apa salah dan kurangku padamu

kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan

karna skali cinta aku tetap cinta

mencoba bertahan di atas 

puing-puing cinta yang tlah rapuh

apa yang kugenggam 

tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu

dan tlah kuberikan sluruh hatiku

tapi mengapa baru kini kau pertanyakan 

kau pertanyakan cintaku

kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan

karna skali cinta 

karna skali cinta aku tetap cinta

Invitation to a bday party..

... at Empire Theatre - Puteri Hajah Hafizah SB. Enjoyed myself coz ST12, my fav band, beraksi... esp. lagu saat terakhir ah...